Anonymous asked: what made you want or realize that you should start recovery? Is it working for you so far?
I realized how much I want to do in my life and how much passion I have to pursue that I can’t spend any more time killing myself.
Yeah I have days where I so badly want to restrict and be fully in my disorder. And there’s some days where I want to recover.
It’s an extremely treacherous journey, there’s no smooth recovery. It’s hell but it’s better than slowly dying.
risewiththefalllen asked: Nooooo don't give up!!:(
I won’t, just a rough morning
written by Mooji (via breathemystardust)
What will you gain when you lose?
Well, Special K, I gained self-confidence
when I lost the first 10 pounds.
I gained an addiction when I lost
the next thirty.
I gained the horrid feeling deep in my
empty stomach when I started to lose my hair.
When I finally reached recovery,
I gained the confidence to lose my eating disorder.
I no longer judge my worth in proportion to my weight.
written by Michelle K., Dear Special K. (via michellekpoems)